Step of the Month: “Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”
How instincts can exceed their proper function. Step Four is an effort to discover our liabilities.
Basic problem of extremes in instinctive drives. Misguided moral inventory can result in guilt,
grandiosity, or blaming others. Assets can be noted with liabilities. Self-justification is
dangerous. Willingness to take inventory brings light and new confidence. Step Four is
beginning of lifetime practice. Common symptoms of emotional insecurity are worry, anger,
self-pity, and depression. Inventory reviews relationships. Importance of thoroughness.
Tradition of the Month: “Each group should be autonomous except in matters affecting other groups or A.A. as a
Every group manages its affairs as it pleases, except when A.A. as a whole is threatened. Is such
liberty dangerous? The group, like the individual, must eventually conform to principles that
guarantee survival. Two storm signals—a group ought not do anything which would injure A.A.,
nor affiliate itself with outside interests. An example: the “A.A. Center” that didn’t work.
Meet our Hotel Chair:
My sobriety date is October 26th, 2007. I got sober two weeks after my twenty first
birthday. My last drunk landed me in the ER in an alcoholic comma. I spent a week in a psych
unit and begrudgingly went to rehab. I remember thinking everyone around me was being
mellow dramatic, that “it” wasn’t that bad. The only think I knew for sure was that the way I
was going about my life wasn’t work, that the gig was up, so to speak.
I was fortunate enough to have the gift of desperation and begin putting one foot in
front of the next. I went to a meeting the day I got out of rehab and just kept going. I immersed
myself in this new sober identity. I read as many memoirs about addiction that I could get my
hands on, listened to songs geared towards the recovery process and soaked up the stories I
heard in the halls. I couldn’t believe I had found a language for all the feelings I had worked so
hard to drown. Overtime, I have been humbled as I experienced the Promises move from just being
letters on a banner, to opportunities living and breathing inside of me. I have been hired and
fired in sobriety, I have gone back to school to finish my undergraduate degree, I got my
Masters and am working in a field which nurtures a part of me I hadn’t learned to listen to. Just
shy of 2 years sober, the classic girl (me) meets boy (him) on AA campus, flash forward 8 1/2
years, we are now planning our wedding (looking back, I think we might have rushed it). I know
with every fiber of my being, that none of this would be possible if I hadn’t accepted the help I
so desperately needed on the 26 th of October 2007.
My involvement in AA has had its moments when I have felt like I’m at the center of
things and other times when I have felt like a visitor. But what has never wavered is how
incredibly humbled I am to be a member of a program that saves so many lives; myself
This is my third year on the Boston Bid for ICYPAA. I have been the Arts Chair, Bid
Package Chair, and I am currently the Program Chair. My first ICYPAA was in San Antonio,
2014. I had never seen so many sober young people in one place at one time. It was the most
exhilarating experience. Representing Boston at such an event really magnified what fellowship
could be. Over the past two years I have felt like a visitor. I got busy. Going to Graduate school
was a dream that grew out of the choices which came from staying sober and I struggled to find
a balance between where I was going and all the things that had helped me to get there.
Rejoining the Bid this year has helped me to remember what it feels like to be in the middle,
surrounded by the fellowship that has carried me all the years before…and every now and then I like to look up during the closing prayer and soak in just how incredible it is that I am surrounded such resiliency.